In the beginning
Life has not always been really rosey for me, I mean it’s always been one problem or the other. I grew up in a not so dysfunctional home because obviously, we all loved each other but we came from different mothers and no matter how hard we try this ugly monkey always find a way to show itself in our midst.
I had a very simple and clear plan for my life, grow up, go to school, excel in school probably come out with a 2.1 if I don’t make a distinction, build my own school to make daddy proud because it was as much my dream as it was his, then get married but no life would just not have it.
The only thing it wants to do is take from me first it was my mother and then my dad, it hurt me, it broke me so much so I forgot all my dreams and started to leave each day as it comes, I stopped excelling in school even though I never practically failed any of my exams but I knew I was not doing well so did my teachers as I was still in secondary school then.
You would think that life was done with me or so i thought but it was not because a few years down the line after i struggled year in year out for 4years to simply pass my waec and gain admission.
Then came this glorious year 2014, I had passed my exams and gained admission to the university of my choice and in my heart all was going to be glorious and i promised myself this time was going to be different,
I will give it my all, if i am not going to make daddy proud i can as well make my favourite siblings proud at least the ones who admitted my existence.
I had everything figured out again all in my head maybe this time not build a school as part of the urge for that dream died with my dad a long time ago.
Back to year 2014 school resumed, i resumed and so did life along with everything good and evil it could find. My eldest brother got into trouble, went to jail and we travelled from court to court every other day of the week trying to resolve the whole issue and exonorate him too because he was innocent of the crime he was accused of.
We battled this court case for months unend at a point on our way to the court one day i started to bleed from my nose non-stop and i was taken to the nearest pharmacy by one of my step-brothers, stress they said it was and that was how i was stopped from going to the court until the day we went to get him out of prison and there ended our prison and court battle.
But little did i know 2014 wasn’t done with me or my family and for fear of tearing up while typing this i would like not to go into details but for what its worth 2014 ended with life taking from me another dearly beloved, that is my immediate elder brother taken from me again.
This time the death was more dramatic and gruesome than anything I have ever seen in my entire death and grief course of study.
You are probably wondering who I am, don’t sweat it, I will tell you about me in a bit…
