So Koju told me he loves me today and I went blank, I didn’t t know how to respond to him. The thing is that I don’t love him at all, and this doesn’t make me a bad person right? At least I have a good reason for that.
We met at an office event last year, we got talking and we realized that we had a cool connection, meaning it wouldn’t be bad if get to know one another better.
After few days of back and front on the phone, we decided to go on a date which went great if you ask me. The first date led to more dates which were all amazing and then he asked me to be his girlfriend like the gentleman that he is.
So throughout our previous date, I never slept over at his place and that was because he never offered or requested.
My relationship with Koju has been one of my best so far but I feel like he is hiding something from me
And let me tell you, I have been in more than 10 relationships so I know when a man is not being truthful. All this relationship has left me messed up, maybe a bit paranoid, and questioning my ability to love anyone again.
And now he is telling me he loves me, how do I make him understand that I don’t feel the same way for him that I respect him but don’t trust him.
So here I am looking at the man that has given me everything I have ever needed in a man without asking for anything in return other than my love but yet I can’t give him that which he wants so badly because I feel like he is not 100% sincere with me.
The only way to get out of this issue now is to tell him I love him back but I know deep down that I don’t. So I did, I looked him in the eye smiled at him, and told him I love you Koju with all my heart. Those four-letter words brought a unique light to the eyes that I have never seen before.
Ever since that day, I have been avoiding Koju like a disease, this is due to the fact that I feel bad for lying to him.
Where do I go from here? Should I come plain to him and tell him the truth or should I wait to see if I’m just making a big deal out of nothing?
